Altogether different!

122 eggs and billions......zillions sperm. in the lab for 15 hours.....and still..

This is it for today.

Addicted to.....!

What a day was it! No sperm, no egg!!!! spent 5 hours looking for them. Disected everything, din't get anything, not even cumulus? MY eyes are rolling.....brain is so addicted to see those stuff. Stim was good, I was assuming atleast 10 eggs, follicles were in good size too......Mannn....OK

STOP thinking about it.

Hate her alike like her!

No matter, How mean she is! sometime I mean to like her.  Dr. Joven had 7 siblings excluded herself. Today at lunch, We were talking about world war and suddenly she started crying like a kid, Yes like a kid, because a kid ( Dr. Joven) was missing her father. I was frozen on my chair, could not got up and console her, moment was frozen too........ She lost her father in world war II when she was hardly 7 years old!

Poor Philipinos, How did they survive under US and Japanes army at the same time..huhh

She told us how army forced her father to take a part in war and they took him from home. One day, family came to know that he was shot dead..... they could not got his deadbody even.....ohh man!!!

Her mother worked different places to feed her 8 kids. She excatly knows how to see bleed streets, how to feel starvation, how to bare bomb smoke and noise of tanks. She is 80 years old, still cries for her father...........

I am sorry Dr. Joven..... :(

Spent last night with you.

When I got up in the morning, I was feeling new strenth, my lips were stretching both corners in opposite directions and I saw a SMILE on my face! relaxed! light!
Because I confessed everything to God whatever I had done bad.
I am feeling better, feeling very light and closed to God. I think God forgave me and taught me a lesson that I should not repeat mistakes. I do/will not want to hurt anyone anymore.

Please God be with me. I know it was you in my dream last night, you wiped my tears and taught me how to smile, with a bad start finally I got it from your face. Now I can say, my smile is beautiful! Thanks!

You spent whole night with me, talked to me, showed me new way. But then you said you have to go to others to listen them. You turned back, smiled and said I will be back soon.

I will be waiting for you........

So whatever you said for today I did. I have started contribute my materialistic..........to children, poor, hungery, sick, animals, endangered speacies, nature who you love most! I did not lie and worked honestly.
Now I got my answer why you had created me.
Please help me to continue this for my lifetime.

Thank you for being with me last night.

Using my first love?

There was a small hut in front of my father's parents big mention. And in that hut, there was a old man was used to live with his wife and some goats. He was used to play flute. He had no kids. I totally adored him, his work. He was used to go in jungle with his goats and played flute.
We ( espacially I) were not allowed to talk them. My grandmom was used to take me in her lap all the time but I was tried to go to that old man.
One day, everyone was taking nap, I heard his flute, he was coming back from forest and I ran from home, went to him, He took me in his lap and gave me custard apple! how sweet was it! and gave me his one of kid( goats)! I played with it then he gave me milk of goat, though I din't like it cause I was used to drink powder milk. I enjoyed every moment with him, his wife and his goats. His wife used to kissed on my cheaks!
Pure love!
Suddenly I have heard my uncle's voice who was searching for me in village. I was broughten to home back and my grandmom scolded poor couple that not to touch or even see her grandchild! They cried...........:(
for me. Then I had decided that I'll meet him whenever I want to, without telling anyone in the family. My parents were cool and agreed going me to him. I was very happy so he was. He never forget to bring custard apple for me in his life time. Time was passing..... I went to high school, old man was growing too ( older n older) I remember that sunny morning, my grandfather, my father were talking to other villagers. They asked to my father about me. He said, will go medical school. My grandfather said why don't you ask old man to give his name to me so that I can get reservation seat ( which was for poor students).......I got shattered.

Using my old man!!!!!!

Royal or pathetic?

When I was young, I was the only pampered kid in the family. I was apple eye of my great grandpa, grandpa and both granies. I was belong to a conservative villager's family from father's side and urban, educated family from mother's side. Huhhhh.......Let me tell you it is really tuff to live with these two altogether different environment.
I was told that when I was born, my father's mother sent sweets to everyone in village ( I mean whole village) Then my mothers parents took me with them in the another city cause my parent's were working and had no time to take care of me. But I was used to visit village for few days in summer ( not every summer) and because of the change of environment, I was used to get sick in village so people in the village were used to treat me as royal kid! hmmmmm well one more reason for that royal treatment............
My great grandfather was landlord and was used to give money to needy poor people (on interest)......how does it sound ?????????
I remember the time, my great grandfather used to sit on armchair and listen people who were used sit outside of the house on ground. WOW....
I was not allowed to talk, even touch them! because they were low class!!!! Man......how difficult it is to type even....

Pet?

I/you/we have a pet. It is correct grammer...right?

I just hate it.. why do people keep them? for kids, keep them like a TOY! for fun, for security, for pitty!
I was having morning coffee at work and people came to join me in the kitchen. After some time, the nurse came with her daughter. She told us about her lost dog that she found her in one fo the animal shelter but she can not recognize her because the whole group of dog looked same, when she called her name, they all got excited and started jumping.......aawwwww I just can imagine how bad they want pamper. Daughter of the nurse started crying, she could not recognise her dog......I asked her not to cry and find any unique identification like hairloss spot, any injured part or anything which make her dog unique. She jumped on chair and smiled, ooohhh yeah! I know that............I hope little girl will find her dog.

Today morning, when I was walking on the street, I saw a big brown dog who had no coller, no assistance, nothing. He crossed near by me, I stopped, turnt back, looked at him going freely. Then I told this everyone and two of them saw him at same spot. then I came to know that some people leave them just like that because they don't want much responsibility?????? some even kill them????? How nasty!!!!

Don't use them like a toy?????

They have life! They breath, and They have heart too just like homosapians!